Game Over For The Moment

[funranium]

Find a puppy*.

Place all your hopes and dreams on the puppy.

Now, vigorously shove puppy into the fan belt of a mid-70s Chrysler land behemoth.

Note how the burning smell brings tears to your eyes.

This is how I feel about withdrawing my application to LLNL today.  I was treated like crap before I even got a chance to be hired.  I will be a lower tier employee in their eyes forever.  All I had to do was jump through a hoop like I was still their technician employee and accept an at-will appointment for a maximum of six years.  All I had to do was give up a professional position with a pensioned career appointment in this economy.  The cost is a delta of $15k and not returning to the land of Secret Squirrel for the foreseeable future.

I do not feel that I made the wrong choice, but it makes IAEA and non-proliferation work seem very far away right now.  I'm not sure what the path to that goal looks like outside of a national lab.

I wish this was a Friday so I could get properly drunk about this.

*: I say "puppy" because "kitten" would be extra depressing.  I mean, I'm not at wrist slitting levels here.  I've seen a kitten foolish enough to keep warm by crawling up into an engine.

Comments

[blark.livejournal.com]

Screw those Cheney cronies anyway. Knowing you, you'll find a better way into the IAEA et al. Much like Shatner doing spoken word versions of rap songs. You have that much power.

[funranium.livejournal.com]

Never know what I'll come up with, but I got nothing right now.

[blark.livejournal.com]

Now is not later. It's all very zen.

[mjchildress.livejournal.com]

look at it this way - at least you'll have time to let the new and improved DOE leadership develop a better framework with more opportunities for you in a few years (we hope). but sorry to hear that man, i respect your decision to say 'no thanks, i would rather not be your tool'

[twistedcat.livejournal.com]

ouch. i'm sorry, hon.

[funranium.livejournal.com]

There is much harrumph but I knew that no matter how this turned out I would still be employed doing something I enjoy.

Perhaps the Department of Defense...hmm. I think I need to pick up the string of email again.

[twistedcat.livejournal.com]

...great minds think alike...

[http://users.livejournal.com/-bats-/]

Good self-respecting call, Cheesesteak. Sorry you had to make it ;{

[funranium.livejournal.com]

Still feels like poop. Trying to figure out other ascents up Mt. IAEA. Only thing that comes to mind at the moment is the Nuclear Regulatory Commission or the State Department. The latter would be a big longshot I think.

[draggonlaady.livejournal.com]

Suckage. I'm sorry, hon. Should I send the ninjas to knee-cap someone?

[funranium.livejournal.com]

The Strategic Human Capital department of LLNL could use a serious attitude adjustment. I suppose you'd have to regulate on Mr. Riley Bechtel as well.

[draggonlaady.livejournal.com]

Email me addresses, I'll see what can be arranged.

[funranium.livejournal.com]

Mr. Riley Bechtel
Private Plane Built Out Of Taxpayer Dollars
Pigfucker (formerly known as Reston), VA

[draggonlaady.livejournal.com]

Got a zipcode for that? I think I'll send something, just for kicks.